Would you like me to apologize for unapologetically being me? Should I say sorry to you now, for being who I choose to be? For being happy? For being pleased with who I am?
Do I have to be obedient to your made-up rules and self-proclaimed righteousness in order to be considered good?
No. The feeling of having to defend oneself for being oneself is an absurd one.
I am here to live my life in a way that fulfills me – not in a way that fulfills someone else’s perception of how I should be. I am not here to be anything other than me. If that offends you, then ask yourself why you’re not fully being you.
I am not going to change who I am for your approval. The only approval I need is my own. And I approved of me a long, long time ago.
So to waste my time trying to convince me that I am no good, is pointless. To waste my time in an effort to get me angry with myself is ridiculous. To waste any time with the intention of trying to make me more like you and less like me, more angry and less happy, more confused and less clear – is absolutely insane.
For, that will never happen, see, I’m Missy, babe. I am ME.
I came here with the intention to live and enjoy the wild ride, with the commitment to honor myself and all that I desire as the amazing me that I am.
I did not come here to shame others. I did not come here to blame others. I came here to live. To enjoy living. To enjoy the ride. To enjoy myself. My wild self.
I will not cage or tame myself to better accommodate you. I will only hope that you find the key to set yourself free from the cage you’ve locked yourself up in, so you stop trying to cage me in there with you.
You see, I cannot be caged. I cannot be tamed. I am Missy. I am a wild woman. I am Missy. I am the light that blinds if you’re not opening your eyes clearly. I am the Queen of the Wild, and wild I will be. And if for some reason that offends you, then don’t bother with me.
If what I do with my life makes you angry while you live yours – then take a deeper look behind your closed doors. Cause my doors are wide open – my pages there for you to read – and when you look deeper at me you still see that the way I live my life makes me happy.
And THAT is all I seek.
What is it that you seek? That should be your priority. Not me, and how I’m living fulfillingly.
I suggest that if you continue having trouble seeing clearly when you’re near me, pull the blinds over your eyes, because I won’t be dimming my spectacular light.
And if you wish to continue to tell me that what I’m doing and how I’m doing it is not right, please rethink before you speak, because you see, I don’t give a fuck about what you feel entitled to say at me.
So if I want to dance at 10:30 to loud music that makes me want to howl, then I will and you can watch me. And if I want to howl like the wild beast that I am, then I will and you can listen. And if I want to stomp my feet in excitement for whatever reason, then I will and you can feel it.
And if you don’t like it, walk away, because I am not going to change. And I am perfectly comfortable right here where I stand.
And if from where I stand I want to tell a woman I’ve never before met that she is beautiful, then I will, because she is. And if I want to jump up and cheerlead other women, then I will – because that’s what women should do. We should celebrate each other, hold each other up high, empower one another and celebrate our differences. Not belittle or berate each other in order to feel good about where we stand.
A woman who belittles or berates another woman is only belittling and berating herself.
If you are a woman of authentic integrity, then what another woman chooses to do with her life should have no affect and hold no power over you. But the moment your mind starts stirring because of what another woman chooses for herself, is the moment that you need to look inside of yourself.
Because you are here to live, babe, so don’t waste your time getting hung up when another girl doesn’t do it like you, cause she’s busy having the time of her life, and you should be too.